hi balls. i actually can't sleep. like durh. trying to let go of my mind to be free at the moment. but i can't seem to do it. i don't know why but the thoughts just kept on getting back. just like a haunting ghost. it came back everytime you cry. you know i've watched too much DIGIMON ADVENTURES. and there's this Dark Area which feeds on humans sorrows and all the bad sins.
and i think if there's any now, i'm so gonna get consumed by it and be dead by now. lying there on my bed, lifeless. or to be more gory, it consumes my brain too much, and my head exploded to pieces. oh how comical. i think too much. too much that i almost cried out blood, over-consumption of panadols and over-smoking. i (read: don't) usually do that. this thing is so bad, that i would like to scream my heart out and pull out every inch of hair on my head.
im hurt. so hurt that i would do anything psychotic. i would rather get myself killed then to get hurt. especially by someone whom i loved so much and not realising whatever i've done. doubting me to the very detail where i can pull out my toe nail. is this what you called love? and i thought we trusted each other. you always blame me on something which is very small.
in other words, you're making me think too much and confusing me with your words. in result when you can't phrase your words properly, im ended up hurt and feeling so down and there goes my language towards you. come to think of it. do you deserve it? oh hell yes you do. i would sacrifice myself to carry a log and give a hard hit on your head for you to realise. and i hope that work.
like you said. we need two hands to be able to clap. and if one of the hand is hurt and the other hand's ego wants it to keep going, the hurt-ed hand
forced itself to clap. that's what i'm going through. well let me explain.
you're in a arguement. and it's geting worse by the min. and you've got hurt by what the other said or did. and you want to get to the bottom of it and see what he/she wants. but in the end, he or she just give in like that w/o any explanation. that's what i'm trying to say alright. it's just getting on my nerves so bad. i want to cry. cry with someone. but not you. coz' i don't want you to see me cry and it's the last thing i do.
i'd rather cry with my own FRIENDS. coz' they're better at understanding me. unlike you. you're so obssesed with yourself that you only think for yourself. and i've said baby. leave me alone. i don't want you to be called a murderer yourself. haizz.
okayes! i went out with darling KS and RAGE. it was great. only when it comes to the financial part, KS is abit stuck there. and got alot of help from RAGE themselves. and on behalf of my friends, we thank you guys alot. and of coz' we owe you guys something in return. ((:
he are some compiled pictures to end the day with. LOL! love you guys.
this is dearest KS. we had fun right? ((: don't forget we will not have this kind of fun w/o the rest of them and that is RAGE. ((:
and this is dearest RAGE. our new found friends which we bonded quite fast actually. LOL! but still you guys are fun people yaw. won't miss any outing with you guys.
and this is Andy, ayeen's nephew. LOL! i know cute and he actually looked like one of my little brother. this one.
i know only he's abit darker. just like my dad. LOL! okayes tata ya'll.
CAM-WHORING! ((:
mell loved his ARMY.
but he just need more respect than that he used to get.
