this teeny-weeny lil' feeling..
you're having a very hard time.. too many things happening and you cant handle it.. too much emotional pressures.. felt as if you want to kill yourself at the very moment.. then a friend came without you knowing.. all you know he/she wanted to make you feel better.. that's the plain reason.. i hope you get it..
but everything went into debris.. whatever he or she said you don't even care anymore.. all you want is your life to have the happy emotions.. -_-
explaination sucked big time.. but that's all i could say.. (:
so much for taking things slow.. you thought it's the best thing you ever had but in the end, you want to thank them for making you this much more stronger.. every each one of you.. i had enough of these emotional pressures which pulled me down, glued to the earth without knowing where to go and what to do..
it is my mistake.. my biggest mistake for falling too fast.. for entertaining to him/her.. but that all doesnt matter anymore.. and now, i trust noone else but myself.. cause' only me can make myself happy.. noone could cause' none of them out there who knew what i wanted.. you can say im selfish but i dont care.. for once, i want to have everything for myself..
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well to make things worse, none of my baju kurung is in.. seriously this sucked big time.. everything went crazy.. depressed.. seriously i need some pills.. -_-
wonder if all of this would just go away in a blink of an eye.. how i wish i could sleep all the way till' the end of raya.. where i don't need to 'salam-bersalaman' and stuffs like that.. all im looking forward now is a new year.. new resolutions..
but things just happened too fast god damn it.. seriously i felt the world is on my shoulders.. not literally but ya.. -_-
lalalalalalala~
Labels: what a year..
