bad night..
bad sleep..
bad dream.. when i thought back about it, i wonder why must this happen to me.. started out sarcastic cause' i didn't get what i wanted.. and it drags on without notice.. cause' it's too one-sided and i want to find out why.. what's wrong with everything being around me.. i don't understand.. you said you're the going through it but ever you wonder the cons are on me?
cons =
putting the blames on me..
you blame me for being bitchy..
(you still do it didn't you?)
you blame me for not treating you right..
(isn't that you?)
you blame me for not giving our quality time..
(only me?)
you blame me for not understanding you very well..
(you understood me so well?)
ps: my mistakes are now all over your face cause' you're the one doing it also.. wth!
im going to talk about my
freedom since that's the issue i brought up yesterday.. you said you only took away my freedom only from them.. (
yes i agree)
use the big brains of yours and think.. i still hang around with the guys? (you told me to do that) isn't that the only people that i hang around with.. just have some thought for it.. you don't expect me to always go to where you are cause' you, yourself know my situation.. doesn't mean you hate them i have to hate them also.. (it's called selfish, fish monger!)
yes i only know them for less than a year.. but that less than a year, alot happened.. and it's impossible for you not to know that they're the only hang out friends i have.. YOU KNOW ALL THIS BUT WHY MUST YOU ASK ME AGAIN?!
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* you want us to be happy again? can if only you change your over-reacting bitchiness cause' it doesn't only affect me but anyone else and it's a definite turn off and thats the reason i can't click with you..
extracted from a blog:
your bitchiness and ur harsh words
will only make me love you more
cos that's the only time that i know u really cared
this is what i called contradicting.. what are you trying to tell me exactly? it's already like part of me same goes to you and forgetting things.. isn't that the same.. well the very main thing is, u wanted all or nothing from me which made you this way.. you gave me too much and expected something back.. even if i treat you right, it would be a major mistake..
and you know what you said.. and that's not going to change anything.. nothing's going to heal the pain that you did to me.. like the melayu said, 'bisa sunggh luka ini walau tak berdarah'.. not exactly speechless but i tried to stand up for myself but instead, i gave up.. cause' too much happened and i felt useless..
you brought down my self-esteem to the lowest..
you brought down my moral to the lowest..
till' i have to dig out for them..
i guess it's the end..
Labels: cheap motherfuckers and shipwrecked relationships
